i missed you
when I shot open my head's window
When I defenestrated bits of brain
I patted safety glass
i built too cheaply to last,
it didn't shatter so much as
Swing.
into an overgrown room.
arms and legs canopy the floor,
dripping leaves fall from the ceiling,
snow blows in sideways bloody
and you're getting wet and as I
look away at the whispery bullet holes in the air
You hang.
I just barely fucking missed you
tracing the last of our love all over my body for the last time,
Saying “fuck me” for the last time,
Saying “let's be lonely together” for the last time –
where I keep us in mind inside me.
i wanted us to be the first to go.
i didn't want to die thinking of you.
